Did I Even Deserve To Go To Med School?
There is a very good chance that you already know this but, I have wanted for the life of me to go to med school. I wanted to be the dope ass heart surgeon who built dope large ass hospital and discovered dope ass discoveries. I was dreaming about it. I was designing my hospital and imagining what different floors would look like. This is my passion. You know it is because I am getting kinda emotional writing this. I even got a stethoscope at one point and was using it as motivation to push through stupid subjects and topics that I had to deal with in my senior year of high school.
Like I said, It is my passion. I love it.. truly. You get my point, but... I didn't get into med school and I am kinda salty.
It would be very easy for me to blame this on the system especially that I am known for good grades.. generally. And also especially that everyone already talks shit about the educational system in Egypt so, If I started the topic, Probably, Absolutely no one will not disagree with me. And If you think that I am not gonna do that.. you're wrong.
But before I do this, I want to own up to some of my mistakes so that I can curse the system as much as I want later! 😂
When I look at my grades, Chemistry is the one that gets me kinda sad because I know that I should have studied more. Honestly, what makes me sad is letting myself and my chemistry teacher down. I admit not studying the last chapter that we took (which was about electricity and stuff) as good as I did for the other 4 chapters. This one was my fault. This chapter was the one that we took online when centers were shut and I have to say that our teachers really did an amazing job for recording quality videos and compensating for the missing communication that we used to have during class.
Now Lets go all the way to Geology. 9 marks.. 9 FUCKING marks is what I lost in this exam. It was the last exam and I have not "memorized أحفظ and regurgitated تقيأت " as much as I should have to score a better mark. And be careful of the vocabulary I used here. I have warned you at the beginning that I am gonna be a little b*tch and curse the fuck out of the educational system. But I just thought That geology is the most out of all 7 subjects that required me to memorize and blindly repeat words and useless sentences, or at least the way that I was presented with the subject felt like this.
To be fair, Biology, Physics and Chemistry really had a ton of questions that required you to actually understand the subject and the topic that you are studying to solve them which my teachers have done an amazing job doing.
So, Let's come to the conclusion. You have my scores (link elow). Do You Think I Was Meant To Be a Bloody Brilliant Surgeon? or did I not deserve to?
Let me tell you what I think.
Charles H. Mayo, who is, for not wanting to waste your time and for the lack of my knowledge about him, a doctor, said:
"There are two objects of medical education: To heal the sick, and to advance the science."
and I believe that I was meant to advance the scienace and not to heal the sick. God chose this for me for a reason that I don't know and instead of thinking that I've failed to accomplish my dream. I like to think that God thought that this part of medicine is better suited for me. God didn't want to give me the "healing the sick" job. He gave me the "advancing the science" job. You know why I think that? Because I fucking study Biotechnology. Tell me this field isn't the "advancing the science" job.
*If you were wondering, Yes, I did in fact come across this mere chance watching some random YouTube video.
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